These days, things do feel pretty lonely. These last few years have also been harder. Katja died towards the end of 2006 in September. Then in 2007 I was in Germany for Christmas, South Africa for September. 2008 saw me toss aside a plan to live and work in Scotland for insurance. My dad talked me into it with the hopes I'd take over the wheel, and do all his work for him and he could retire. That didn't work out, and maybe he learned something along the way. I went to Rhode Island for a wedding, my first time in New England. 2009 was hard, but led me to Boston for the first time. It gave me enough of a boost to quit my job to make a short film, which I did in 2010. It was worth it. I'd be forced to try insurance again, having a hard time finding work. Got paid for training, went to NYC and Boston. Got back, was broke. Found out I had a little bit of money, went immediately to Cape Cod. Came back, was inspired to write a screenplay, got a job in a city an hour away. Went to Cape Cod in the spring of 2011, went to Buffalo, got an idea for a candy shop, it fell apart. Lost job in Kitchener, tried to find work, eventually found work at a restaurant. Restaurant closed down when I returned from trip to Nebraska. Now... I'm about to head to LA to try and sell the script I started in 2010.
It's been two years since I started writing it, and now it's basically done. Writing is re-writing, and I have gone through the script once more, and revised small things. I haven't radically changed the story. Just adding more story to it.
The problem I am faced with is this... If I don't go to LA... I'll never get the chance to do so. This is my only shot. So I gotta do it... I gotta go west. I have the rest of my life to be stuck working at least two jobs... This is my only chance to go out west and try and make it. There are no guarantees, but if I don't go, then I have a 100% guarantee of failure.
How do I pull it all off though? How do I find an agent... How do I find the success I am looking for? I really am thinking every angle possible. Friends, relatives, anyone with connections. Anyone who may know someone... I will be starting a very uncertain journey, with no guarantee of success at all. Blaaaaaaaah!
